If you’re a regular reader you’ll know I have been chatting online and texting/phone calls with a man I met online quite some time ago, getting on for a year in fact. He doesn’t seem worried I am chronically ill but he does live quite a way from me. He likes to take things very slow due in part to being burned a few times. I was starting to wonder if I’d ever meet him. However, there is a possibility I may see him tomorrow or any weekend soon. I’m a little nervous, the expectations may be higher from having spoken to him for so long but I sorely need something good to look forward too after all the stress with my son, so fingers crossed I see him and everything goes well! As well as all spoonies know, it’s hard to find someone once you’re chronically ill, I may well write a few posts on that subject at some point.

My son has been staying round psycho ex sis in-law’s for 3 nights. I’m trying to see the positive side, I don’t have to put up with his mouth and attitude, although I’m not happy about him being there and so often. He knows he can’t stay there every night and has been told he has to be home this evening. Still, once they’ve all gone back to school, I doubt he’ll be trying to stay there all the time. God help me when it’s the summer holiday’s though.

Despite it all, I am trying to keep studying as this is such an important time for me with this course. It’s been very difficult to focus with so much stress but the past few days have been a bit more restful and calm, I’m about a week away from writing up a 5000 word essay once I’ve finished this textbook. Not looking forward to that one as every essay I’ve done so far, I’ve never managed to meet the full word count, although have still passed but we shall see. I shall worry about it when I’m  actually doing it and not before, or that’s what’s I keep telling myself anyway lol